*drum roll*eye roll*

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I’ll write about a guy I’m currently obsessing about.
He’s good.
But I don’t think he’s interested.
The End.

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On being DUMB

I feel dumb, so dumb.

I’m tired of being what I want me to be.
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
I don’t know what I’m expecting of me.
Put under the pressure of walking in my shoes.
Every step that I take is another mistake to me.
I’ve become so dumb, I can’t feel you there.

— — — LinkedIn Park

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Cleavage

My breasts are heavy and curved.
I’ve never liked my breasts
Because they are D, sometimes DD
You’re supposed to be an A
AA-kriti, better.

But fuck, that cleavage lining
Is so fucking smooth.
Hot.
I love my cleavage.

Mummy no longer tells me to hide my cleavage.

She used to tell me, “Wear whatever you want with friends, not with family.”
I ask, “Isn’t family where you are supposed to feel the safest? Where no one will look at me with predatory eyes, that family will protect me? Then shouldn’t I wear clothes I want to wear (read: revealing) in family settings?”

Mummy no longer tells me to hide my cleavage.

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6:10pm

Can we go on top of a hill
Secluded hill
Where no one’s around
Someplace far
to scream.

Can we buy two tubs
Of ice-cream
Butter-scotch
And eat
without sharing.

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*jokes mummy found funny*you better laugh*

Someone asks me about St. Mary’s:

Feri tyo din samjhana chahanna
Tehi katha ma dohoryauna chahanna

Why I’ve never been in a relationship:

Maya yo aago ho polcha thaha cha
Aafai lai jalauna ma chahanna

When your sex drive high, trust issues higher:

Suna saili, saili, 40 katesi ramaula

When you find that guy: a feminist, Nepali, confident, matches your energy, good human

Malai America yei, malai Japan pani yei, malai Belayat ni yei

When you see a hot guy on a #nepaltiktok video:

Kaha hola ghara baara, kaha hola gaau,
Chithi lekhi pathaula hai
K ho timro naau

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*one true savage love, mummy

Me: Mummy, don’t expect me to bring a Nepali guy home

Mummy: Taile ta bideshi pani lyaudinas jasto cha

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Things I like:

• Thunders
• Lightning
• Bilauni (brown leftovers after you heat nauni ghiuu to make ghiuu)
• Sunflowers
• That sound of the creaking bed in Naagin gin gin gin gin gin (timestamp: 0:42)
• Hariyali (greenery)

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